I cant sleep.
Tonight I found out I didnt get a job I interviewed for last week.
I didnt really tell alot of people about it because in case I didnt get it I didnt want everyone to know I failed. Honestly I just feel embarrassed, I dont know why, thats just the way my mind works sometimes.
I even cancelled a trip to Hawaii because I thought for sure I had it. Wow. Rough.
Now I'm writing about it with hope that it will make me feel better.
I hate failing.
It's not even that I didnt get the job, it's the fact that I know im qualified and would be a great asset to the company and I didnt get chosen because of one interview.
I hate the feeling of not knowing what to do with my career choice. I want to be back in school but I just dont know what to do. I want to have a degree where I can make money, not just get a degree and never use it once I start having kids.
I just looked at programs and honestly I am lost.
I dont have ANY idea what I want to do or what my Heavenly Father wants me to do.
I went and talked to my Dad after finding out I didnt get the job and he helped me remember that everything does happen for a reason and not getting this job is not the end of the world.
I know everything will work out, I just wish it would happen faster.
I cant sit at home much longer!!!!
You can only make so many pumpkins and re-do so many thrift store finds!!!
I just need something!
A job that will work with school.
Is that asking too much?!
Tomorrow is a new day.